Languages, What I want to learn

So, Readers. How many of you want to learn another language? I’m not really talking about Spanish (although living in America might as well learn that too since it’s common) but like Japanese, Mandarin, Chinese, Thai, Korean and other Languages. I have a huge urge and heavy feeling I need to learn Japanese and Mandarin, which I will be pursuing Japanese first. I hear Mandarin is a bit harder to understand and learn, guess we will see when I get to that point. I’ll be going to Half price Books sometime next week to see if they have any Japanese books and audio or writing materials.

I enjoy listening to Japan music from a Japanese radio station on Itunes, Sometimes I listen to a station called Japan-A-Radio which is an anime & Japanese radio station. I have fallen in love without he Japanese world, there is so much to their world and it is very fascinating to me. A lot of their inventions are interesting. Not only in Japan though, China has some fascinating inventions as well much like their self-freezing coke (Thought to be exclusive to Hong Kong) though many Americans have enjoyed the frozen treat. There are plenty of reviews if you go to YOUTUBE.COM and type in “frozen coke in hong kong.” Then again you can go here Review by CrazyFromKong which are a couple of funny guys who go around doing reviews and things about everything. They also did one on the cream soda since they added flavors in Hong Kong haha, they even show you inside which is cool. I don’t condone laughing at angry people though, I think the guy was telling them to go away haha. I should mention though they do reviews on different foods including Japanese Soy sauce kit kat bars lol.

I’d like to go to japan some day, as well as Hong Kong. If I ever save up enough money I also want to adopt a Chinese baby girl (well any age between newborn to 10 years old) for older children I really need to learn their language. I kind of want to move to Japan, though I know some people say it’s not a good idea I don’t see why not. It’s always been a dream of mine to work in Japan, but as it goes the means to those dreams aren’t always achievable. Its weird how I went from wanting children to wanting to explore the world, I think once I finish school I might see what kinds of jobs are out there. My main dream jobs are working for one or more of the three companies; Pixar, Dream works studio, and Blizzard. As far as I know though, they don’t really work in Japan or China. I will take a trip some day to those two places though, I just love the Japanese culture.

We’ll I’ll hit up the blog again soon. Hopefully with some awesome finds from Half price books :)

 

There’s a place i know…

So lol, I didn’t know what to put as the title for this update aha. I’m listening to the only song I like from Ke$ha called take it off, its a catchy upbeat tune. Anyways I wanted to update my readers (the few I do have aha) on life, DND, and all that good stuff. Alright? Alright, so my art is getting better particularly in the Equine and canine area. My humans are coming along great actually I am so surprised at myself im doing so much better, I am fiddling with Maya trying to make a Ferret for a small short idea I have even though I want to make my idea into a full fledged movie some day for children im not sure how to do that exactly, maybe by expanding my small story on the creatures I made. Its a fun adventure with Anchovy and Clam (Anchovy is the Ferret, Clam is a cat.) who are pets of a local Fishermen located around the coast. Lots of Drama, love, and learning in my story. But I’ll tell the story another time, I don’t want to make the post too long.

DND is getting better, I have been documenting blow by blows as well as how many monsters are killed by each character. Calculating their damage ect for everyone to have accurate points on the Wizard website. Which reminds me I still need to draw up those fighting dragons for the store we play at, the owner wants a painting type thing on one of the walls. I may be tag teaming with my husband on this, I draw and he paints or I could see if the owner wants to do a ‘everyone involved’ kind of painting which would be cool too so long as they don’t go outside the lines of the dragon or draw inappropriate things. Ok getting off track now, DND is split into two groups for battling right now. Mainly because we have 8+ members coming every week, this seems to make things not only go faster but less drama with other players. I sit at the table known as the ‘girly table’ because the DM (my best friend) uses Hello Kitty, Toy story, Aladan and some sort of boy Squinkies as monsters (I love it) Now if only she would get Barney Squinkies we could kill Barney! (sorry for those who like him, I don’t) Id say it would be cool to have lion king ones but I would not want to kill Simba or Nala ect. Scar I could and the Hyenas but everyone else not so much.

Hmmm what else, My husband is going to school for Forensic science. He is doing awesome in his classes, which is a relief for me. I was surprised at how well we was doing in math class at first, now I know and expect him to do good instead of using his calculator while where out and about lol. Not really, but I am super happy that he is doing great, I hope that he can continue to do so, especially in his least favorite subject English. My frog Jabba is getting a little bigger, he eats like a piggy and is fairly active actually. I am surprised since they are supposed to stay put and be lazy, we keep the crickets in his cage now because he eats the 4-5 we give him within a day or two. These crickets aren’t small either! He has been rejecting hiding places we had given him, he screams when you place objects in his tank even when they aren’t near him :/ He’s a Drama queen (maybe its a girl?) haha. Yeah So my husband and I have a plan for him to have filtered water in his tank with large flat rocks so he don’t drown I want to get a small waterfall type thing to help with keeping his home moist and humid. Lots of future plans lol. The only problem is im not sure how to keep dirt out of his water so it’s not nasty and doesn’t clog the filter, he likes his dirt and gets his water bowl dirty so we’ll have to figure something out.

Anyways that’s about it I think, I’ll talk to yall later!

 

Hunger Games fun

So I watched the hunger games with my husband when it came out, I absolutely loved it. Mind you I never read the books so I suppose I was watching it from a naive point of view, I probably made my husband upset because I kept asking questions during the film we were super close to the screen so it was like we were right there only on the side lines, the killings weren’t as gruesome as I thought it would be which made it bearable to me at least. It had a good opening, though a lot were depressed at how the main female actor received the pin. It was more family based and heartwarming, at least I thought so. I about cried when Rue died, cutest little girl ever i tell you what, she was so sweet on the film you couldn’t help but feel sorry for her.

If you want a good review & or haven’t watched and want some spoilers check out my friends blog; May the odds EVER be in your favor

Well that was a while ago, today i was reading on cafe mom’s The stir about a neat little game, though there are a few parts you can read their review here; The Stir on the Hunger games.

While on the stir they shown some cool games you can play if you don’t see the movie, their blog is mainly about the games by the way. So I just thought I would share, here is my Hunger games name!

You can find the link to this game here; Vulture.com Hunger games name Generator

And a random generator, it tells you how you die and gives a random name; Hungergames.com (mine; Your name is Abadia Gristlechew
Congratulations! You had the honor of being a District 8 tribute in the 9th Hunger Games!
You were killed by loving too deeply.) copied from the page given.

 

Pacman Frogs!

Ok so I’ve had this little guy for about four and a half months now, (hadn’t told anyone I had him until a little while ago) which im guessing he/she is at least five and a half months old now. I got the frog at Petsmart, the last one they said they were selling because it’s too hard to get them homes. Never fear though they still sell tree frogs. Which I may eventually get a few after I learn more about frogs in general, I have to say I thought I knew what I was doing until I found this site.FROGFORUM.NET (link opens in new window). I have to say my poor frog has been getting less than stellar care, I’ve had snakes, lizards, hamsters, rats, mice, what have you but never had a frog before. So thinking i was good with what information I got from the Petsmart people and a care sheet I figured I was set, nope. I need to get some fake plants, coco fiber by the Eco people who make the Eco dirt, another heater for my poor frog and maybe some moss for around the water bowl to help keep moisture in his tank. Eventually ill get an auto humidifier for him so I don’t have to spray his cage every day, he’s got 2 inches of dirt to dig around in and stay cool, had a hard time finding him today. But I took photos of him, I believe he’s an ornate from looking at other pictures on that forum (if you are looking to get a frog don’t think Petsmart or petco people know what they are talking about or ask a lot more questions, i didn’t and now im trying to remedy this for my frog to grow healthy.)

Anyways I think anyone looking at getting a frog should go there, there are nice people who will help you and some really good information on how to keep the frogs (and there are many different types available to choose from) not only that but i think this site is better than looking on google for information that can get you wrong information, these guys are breeders and hobbyists that keep the frogs. I’d take information from a vet frog keeper any than read information online, at least they know what is needed and what works.

OMG so many colors to choose from, so expensive. I want a red one, green albino, and I saw one that was white and gray (priced at a little more than 20k in japan if i read that right) uhhhh maybe some day ill breed to see if I can get some interesting colors like bright blue or something (dreamer maybe lol)

Onto pictures of my baby; Named Jabba
Note they are kinda blurry cause I used my phone trying to find my camera lol

 

Gliding off the path

I feel so confused, im not sure what it is. And not really sure why im confused, but its like im walking in a constant fog of something. I feel like I have gotten off a path that god had made me and im groping in the bushes, trying to find my way back only to get stuck somewhere, anywhere to the point that I can’t seem to find the Zen place that I once had. Is it depression? Am I becoming someone I don’t want to be? I want to find the path that god made for me once again, but even when I pray I feel lost. Its like I can feel his heart beating but when I think im getting close, it fades away. Perhaps its due to not finding a church I like, I really miss my church in El Paso. There were some awesome people there, and I miss the family feeling and the weekly bible study. It made me feel good to learn about our lord, but I think mainly it was because I was getting to know more people and making friends. Not something I can really do here, at least its not what it feels like. I don’t know, I am just a lost lamb in the shadows trying to find her way to the light.

My husband will be starting school next month, im so excited for him. It makes me happy that he is pursuing his dreams, I love seeing him smile. Even if we have a tendency to bicker more now than when we first got married, he’s the only one for me though. My friends mom told me that we argue a lot, we didn’t think we argued that much but we are taking her advice she’s given to heart and are working on our relationship. Of course we continue our weekly ‘date nights’ once a week even if it’s short, I think we’ve lost a little communication in all the stuff that has been going on. It just took talking to my friends mom to see what was happening, so having children is on hold for now and were going to work on us while I also work on getting healthier.

D&D Thursday night ended up with everyone being bored, sorry to you guys lol. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I was beat after the first game, the chess thing made my stress level high because I didn’t understand it and from there well they know how it went. I almost fell asleep on them, so I don’t know if being a DM is something im cut out to be haha. I think I do ok but, I am not sure if DMing is my thing, Speaking of sleeping on my friends. I woke up around 730 this morning fiddled with emails and facebook until 9am and went to get my husband up, for some reason I thought it would be cool to lay down and watch him sleep for a little bit… I fell asleep and didn’t wake up till 2pm when my husband woke me up. Deffinantly looking forward to the sleep apnea test results, I want to know whats going on!

 

D&D A new world

Ahhh I found a thing that i love, D&D a game that so far has kept my attention. Now if only more games were like that, my husband would be happy. Well I do enjoy the sims computer game, not the facebook game. I tend to let them die on facebook haha. So I had my first DM session last week and I was so worried I would kill someone, it worked out great. Deffinantly left the night with an air of confidence on my ability to DM though im still nervous, I can’t read the rules because I couldn’t find them online. Ah well I have two other DM people I talk to so they pretty much sum it up for me, its actually pretty fun with the twice a week play time we get. One at a private home and one at Encounters which we go to a gaming store to play.

Eeeek and tonight at midnight im going to get the katy perry expansion for my sims 3 game :D

 

Discouraged in more ways than one

I wish life was as simple as other people’s seem to be, though we all have our own problems. Man where to start, a lot has happened since the last time I posted on here. I’m sorry for that my readers, a lot has been going on. Since my husband got out of the army we have been looking for jobs, and I have to say it is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I’ve applied to over 20 places already and keep getting told that they wont be highering until the end of Feb. which sucks because i need a job now, I guess I shouldn’t be overly worried though. My husbands parents are a blessing and god send, I am so thankful and blessed to have them in my life. They are truly guardian angels, and im so happy I get along so well with them. All this, I have also been trying to get a loan to go back to school. Once we file taxes and get the paper work it is what i will be doing since ill be doing a type of loan i wont have to pay back until 6 months after my college graduation, college is expensive but worth it.

Well, im not sure if I have said this or not, but I no longer have buster. Before our move we had to put him to sleep due to a nerve problem he had, it was the worst thing i have ever done in my life. I can’t help but miss him, but what kind of life would he have had if he was in pain all the time. Probably not a good one, I still can’t get his scared look out of my head. I miss him so bad it hurts, like I lost a baby or child. Its sad, people have an odd way of blowing my feelings off or ignoring them when I try to talk about them. That is alright though I suppose, I guess it means that I just loved him too much no real harm in that right. I’ve been dying to get another dog too though, but im also afraid i wont love it like i should, not after putting Buster to sleep. I’ve become quite paranoid about Mia now, so afraid someone is going to try to take her and it will literally tear me apart if I loose her before her old age. I would talk to a psychiatrist but I don’t want to bother them with my self pity, I need to talk to someone who wants to listen. But I don’t want them to feel obligated to listen either, its messed up really.

I found out the other day that I have PCOS on top of High Cholesterol, Hypothyroidism, Gall bladder stones, an Enlarged spleen, and a fatty liver. The PCOS and Hypothyroidism alone is making it impossible for me to loose weight let alone having children, I think im more depressed over that then the other things. Gall stones can be removed and im sure the enlarged spleen can be fixed so can the cholesterol but the weight loss… Its harder than people think, now im not one of those obese people who never do anything. Yes im obese or at least i believe I am, I gained 150 lbs in the last 3 years bringing me up to 356 lbs and I can’t say im pleased. It makes things hard to deal with sometimes, but I excersize and eat as healthy as our budget allows. I just don’t know anymore, its complicated.

On another note, D&D is a new obsession and I am so happy to be in a place that I can breath and get out and want to get moving. D&D is something I do on a weekly basis 1-2 times a week with a group of friends, omg it is so fun.

Well with that ill leave you all. I guess you can call this a self pity entry tonight, and it really makes me feel better too though so hmmm.
Thanks for reading! Until next time.

 

The Move

So the move from Texas is taking longer than we thought it would, the trailer we are towing is a bit heavy and the mountains are always winding it was a miracle we didn’t get into a wreck in San Fransisco. I think that place stressed me out way more than any other city we have gone through. Thankfully I wasn’t the one driving or I would have hit the truck my husband had awesomely skimmed without touching, it was very surreal. I can say that California has it’s share of crazy drivers. Arizona was nice, quite for the small part we went through. Even Phoenix Arizona, it was quite calm. So im at a hotel on the pacific coast, it’s really nice here smells a bit fishy but I love it. The only part that sucks is that there isn’t that much more time were going to be here, were heading out again soon to get as far as we can by night time before making the final distance home. My husband thinks we can make it to his parents house by tonight so we shall see, if we do yay if not then another round of hotel for us unless one of my friends lets us stay with them. Ah well we shall see what the day brings, other than my huge bloody nose that ruined 2 pillows from the hotel not much has happened in regards to traveling. All is well, and hopefully all stay’s well.

Until next time readers! Be safe out there.

 

Pretty Pretty please…

The last few weeks have been quite emotional for me, I’m unsure about why that is. I’ve not been very confident lately I think, School is going great and I love that we are moving so why do I feel like crying at every small thing that doesn’t go my way. I know that its not because im pregnant, I mean if I am I would be ecstatic just saying lol. But why do I feel like crying, like punching walls and being alone. I’m deffinantly not myself, Well I am thinking that maybe part of it is putting my dog down. He was in pain and wouldn’t have a great life, I touched him once and he whined like I hit him that’s when I knew it was time. But I suppose that doesn’t make it any easier, I don’t feel cheated though.

My dog had taught me a lot during his three years of life, from infancy to his adult self, through pain and love. Maybe I just miss him really bad, I know our husky Mia does. She was pouting around for two weeks before she started seeming herself, she makes me smile and knows I love her. She acts hyper around me now, which is good I guess it gets me into a good mood. And I think she knows where moving, she’s been getting super excited when I get up and go to the hallway wanting to go for a ride. Perhaps this will bring a better bond to Mia and I, I am thinking of maybe trying her out in sledding first with a bike then who knows. Nothing serious just something for fun and active for both of us, so I was listening to my ‘not family friendly’ list on youtube and as it played a song by pink it got me to thinking of my future.

While college is going great, I still want a family. But I don’t think that will happen unless we adopt, either way i want to adopt at least one child regardless of having our own. And yes I know there are plenty of children out there, but if adoption wasn’t so darn expensive I’d already have children living with me. I think maybe when we get our own place after a couple months of living with my in-laws we’ll try to do foster care, I know that I should wait until my career takes off and I finish school but I really really want kids and Ill take them any way I can get them lol Legally of course.

thanks for reading!

 

Learning to deal with stress

Well this month has been less than savory, I had to put my dog to sleep and he’s now over the rainbow bridge. I miss him horribly, but it was for the better he was in pain and he didn’t like children. But it was for the best, so the reason I haven’t blogged a lot lately is because both school and home life stress along with our approaching move date there is a lot of stress going on with me. I’m a worrier and it doesn’t help, I have been less than gental with the people living with me currently but overall we try and stay sane with each other through it all.

I can’t wait to move hah then get a job :)